November 2010
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October 2010
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Imprints.
“We were placed on this Earth to leave imprints on others’ lives. “
It’s inevitable that people come and go. People enter your life, and at some point and given time, they eventually leave. I’ve come to terms with that. But, they leave some kind of memorabilia behind.
That’s what they do to you.
When you lose someone you hold closest to your heart, you lose...
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Contingent Thoughts.
My mind is captivated by restless thoughts, my soul mended into an inexplicable transmutation. I’m suppressed, and constricted. Restricted and tied by my own chains and binds. I feel smothered in my own air. Trying to grasp and take hold of something anew. I am in desperate need of relinquishment and replenishment.
I have come to terms with myself, yes. But it’s the sheer fact that...
Sitting here wondering of what may become of me, constantly obsessing over the future, is keeping me from living within the present. I mustn’t forget that my life is here, right now. What happens, happens. Anticipation, not intimidation. I need to learn how to live.
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Autonomy.
Self governed; Independent.
It’s just a word used to describe my own self, provincial independence. I try to be, though. As much as possible, because in the end.. where some friends and family will be there to assist and aid me when I’m in need, all I really have is
Me, myself, and I. I’m content with that.
I pertain excessive affection. I really need somebody where I can just pamper with my own attention. Because quite honestly, I have disaffection with my own self.
I just need somebody to love.
It’s come to a point where everything has been consumed and transmuted into a feeling where I just don’t care anymore. An indifferent tone towards what I think has gone to it’s limit. I can’t take it anymore. so why care? I’m apathetic.
It’s whatever now.
Strength.
As each second ticks, as each moment passes me by, I try to preserve some kind of endurance in my endeavors. I try to be what I am, do what makes me happy, say what is nothing but the truth, and I do everything in the best of my ability. I am a person derived from the depths of what one may call, an old soul. I have compassion, and its one of my many values. Along with trust, honesty, lack of...
I have other things to attend to and other priorities on my agenda that need to be accommodated with, than to deal and tolerate your dumbfuckery and nonsensical bullshit. Speaking in a generalization, if you’re that ignorant to speak with out much consideration of effects and the consequences, then you’re just as idiotic and moronic than I thought. Maybe more. Think before you speak or...
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I was such a good student. Then, these bad habitual proclivites soon enveloped, developed, and progressed. I would have described myself as erudite or sagacious.. but now I’ve lost the effort to even try in my education.. but I know better than that. These are just propensities such as procrastination and prioritization..
I assume it’s because I’m tired. Very, very tired.
inscrutable.
Being misunderstood because of misinterpretation of some assignations. Trying to find determination instead of desperation. Trying to be apprehensive, trying to be comprehensible. Living in a world where first impressions are of the primary beneficial to the judgmental minded.
Evading scurrilous peers, and trying to avoid the inveigh one shall receive from being different; something...
An axiomatic introvert.
It’s definite and apparent that I spend my time mostly rendering of basic conceptual ideals that transcend apprehension of the norm. It’s just that I’ve come to the conclusion that some questions, and interrogatives I may ask in wonder, is left without an answer for a reason.
Idealistically, I believe that everything and anything is composed of ideas. Realistically, I try to...
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I’m used to being forgotten, being consigned to oblivion, and being dismissed from one’s mind. I’m growing fond of lonesomeness, discontentedness, and disatisfaction.
Which all leads to nothing but an apathetic and a indifferent stroke of emotion, and nothing more, or less.
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caseybee:
Single | Throwback.
I will never in...
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Exclusion.
It’s not about exclusion for many others who have committed such an unforgettable and regrettable thing. It’s the awareness that some people have been pushed to their top to a point where they aren’t left with many options. Constant bullying, and consistent torment and intolerance, just because of their sexual orientation.
While others just took their lives away, just because...
Evident disappointment came. I should have seen this one coming. Anticipation was everything. Now, I’m just not sure what to think anymore. I’ll get over it soon, I always do. It’s a phase and the transition duration is not as long as it was. I’m just tired, that’s all.
I need to stop be in constant lookout on my phone, to be quite honest. Waiting for a text or call...
I’m an old soul. I look at the past as a memorandum, and nothing more or less. I live within the present, and try to enjoy the little things around me. I try to feel comfortable in my environment. I look to the future with some type of optimism, but not too much to a point where it is perceived as false hope. I live my life to it’s potential. I’m in the process of finding myself,...
That horrid feeling where you wish to talk to someone, but you feel like a complete bother, or burden. Trying to evade being an annoyance, an irritant, or burdensome though your only goal is to just merely say “hi” to the person. Not sure whether to initiate a conversation, or to wait..
Uncertain whether this person thinks that you are nothing more or less than somebody who...
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“And I be gettin’ high, just to balance out the lows.”
Excuse me if I am sounding preachy, but I am merely being honest. You can interpret it in any way, manner, or form, but it honestly doesn’t mean much to me. Because it’s just an opinion. And you know how valuable those things are, right?
right.
“Some things are better left unsaid.”
Wishing, wanting, praying, hoping, and needing something to satisfy and please myself so I can achieve self-sustainment is such an understatement.
I’m discontent.
The ignorant; Provincial minded.
If find it incredibly comical how ignorance and the immensity of that ignorance exists within our society. I’ve come to terms how I will never be able to tolerate ignorance, let alone the the patience to tolerate it in the first place, but I’ve realized that ignorance exists no matter the dependencies.
It’s always going to be within society. No matter how much it is depleted,...
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Commitment.
I think it’s too early to proclaim that we have found “love”, if you’ve already found somebody. I don’t believe I will define the definite meaning of Love itself, until I am much older, more experienced, and more mature in the progress.
I am too young to understand. I mean, I know what Love is, but I have my ambiguities if I have actually felt it in my past. There’s always someone better than...
“I’m always wanting, needing more. I just have difficulty differing that...”
– Tranquilist.
You taught me how to love but you never taught me...
Consensus.
I’m going to try to dig deep into my literary roots and and find the essence of eloquence I so seek and so desire. I suppose I can embark with some kind of basis of what I’m feeling right now, but I can’t put it into words. It doesn’t seem enough.
My desire for inspiration is longing, and it’s taste I seek upon my tongue is what will sustain me.
I want internal...
Anticipation.
I’ve always looked at the real. I’ve always anticipated of what’s to come, and what’s to come afterwards. This is applicable in short-term daily lifestyles, analyzing a situation or predicament and the summations of the aftermath of what might become. Applicable to long-term situations such as relationships.. such as deciphering of how long it might last, and much it will...
“All the effort in the world won’t matter if you’re not inspired.”
– Chuck Palahniuk (via reticence)
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Can you drop a beat?
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I want you, but I can’t have you.
You’re like a shining star, on the velvet night sky..
You’re there, but you’re completely out of my reach.
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Listen
Expression.
You were given a Voice to speak your soul. Ears to obtain insight through the words of others of what you may hear. Eyes to attain thought in abstractions in sight and art. A heart to feel. A mind to think.
Stand strong beside your beliefs, opinions, preferences, and values, because in the end; They’re the only things that matter the most.
“And all you wanted was my attention, but all you ever felt was disaffection.”
Values.
Compassion. Empathy. Egocentrics lack the ability to connect with other people, because of their own disability to sympathize. Their inconsiderate manner of conceitedness.
Centrics, they are indeed.
Systematic of the Problematic.
What makes you so desirable? I suppose it’s that genuine feeling that you make me feel, that vibe you exert that makes me want to be with you. But I suppose there are quite a few obstacles that would let “us” ever be, therefore… I am just in constant wonder of what if? It’s definite that “us” is never going to happen. Unless, a miracle were to come a brew,...
Distance.
A relationship is always put in the test, when this is the variable in the equation. Distance? To be honest, I find it admirable.. to see how people may have an emotional connection, let alone the strenght, endurance, trust, and faith within the other person to have of what is called;
A long-distance relationship.
To be honest, personally:
I would not be able to endure it. I need...
